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[10 Feb 2007|10:12am]
[ mood | discontent ]

So remember how the last blog everything was going amazingly well. Well God decided to throw a wrench in the mix. My financial aid ran out @ OCC and they decided to tell me 2 days before the bill was due. Not exactly enough time to find another loan. So I opted not to go back this semmester. So I freaked out for about 2 weeks because my job @ picture people really didn't give me any hours. Luckily my best friend Missy got me a job @ her work! So now I work @ a day care watching little chillins. I'm still at picture people too, but i'm not sure how much longer that will last. So no photography classes for me, and i'm going nuts about it! I miss it so much! Luckily there is a community dark room @ S.U. and i'm going to get a membership there, it's just going to take a little bit to save some cash up. They also have workshops and classes for cheap, so I really want to be there right now. Money is a craptastic thing. I have some but there are things I need to take care of first before I can spend $200 on a membership. *le sigh* So yeah, I'm just searching now for an artistic job and a decent pay check. I don't think the 2 go together very well. But at least you're updated. I also really need to change my layout, yeesh it's scary.

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[28 Dec 2006|10:49am]
[ mood | content ]

So it's been a really long time since i've posted on this thing. There has so much that has happened since May! First my summer was ridiculously hard! Lots of politics up at camp made for a really rough summer. But I found some things out about myself and it deffinitly helped on my journy of really becoming a true Christian, none of that hypocritical junk anymore. This semmester I went back to OCC for Photography! It...was...AMAZING!!!! I had the best semmester of my life both GPA and socially! I met some of the best people in the world and I love them dearly! I got a GPA of 3.95. I got an A - in my vocal lessons. Ah well. I also started going to a new chuch up by OCC called Faith Chapel. It's fantastic! It has really helped me continue my faith walk. Through Faith Chapel I started going to BASIC (Brothers and Sisters in Christ) up at OCC, also a small group called The Vault started via Faith Chapel members specifically for young adults from 18-30 somethings. It's excellent! Then I met people from SU and started going to Campus Crusade for Christ up there and have met even more amazing people! Especially 1 person imparticular who I'm praying will end up being more than just a friend. He's wonderful! So the semmester ended well and i'm just aching for school to start up again! Next semmester i'm taking Color 2, Alternative Processing, Studio Lighting, and Intermediate Computer Graphics! It's going to be soooooo fun! I'm just soaking up allll I can. My professors think I have a good chance at fashion photography! So I plan on developing that more this semmester. I'm really falling in love with Photography and I'm not really sure where God wants me to take it but It's been wonderful to me so far. So yeah if you're interested in looking at my photography check out : it's got a good chunk of my work on there from the semmester. I hope everyone is doing well! I miss updating on here, i'll try to get back into it. Ok lovies! Peace out!

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weeee! [23 May 2006|12:40pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

I just got uber excited! I'm going back to OCC next semmester to do some photography work and 2 of my friends are going to be there too! Kevin whom I met there and who is my lover for life and Jenny Face who will be taking photography courses too! We didn't even plan it that way! hah! She and I shared some really good times back in the day, I'm hoping we can reignight our awesome friendship in the fall. It'd be so refreshing to see her. I also need someone to make me go to concerts, i've been seriously lacking in that department and she was always there to go with. *le sigh* I miss my Jenny Face.

So I had Jury duty for .2 seconds today, way to dismiss the trial as we get there. Ah well now I don't have to be called for 6 more years! woot!

So I need to start a new website, died and I want a site that will feature my photography/theatre experience/and graphic art. I just have no time(or patience) to put it together. I can deff. say though that it will be hah! It's so mine!

Anybody know how to do cool flash stuff? Want to teach me or make something for me? hmm?

I just had a large iced chai and i'm a little wired! Weeeee!

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[09 May 2006|10:31pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I’m waiting for that look, that smile
All I need is a moment
your hands on my skin
your breath in my hair
you voice saying my name
does it have to be genuine?
Does it have to be real?
Can’t it just be?
Soul on soul combined for a second in time
you breathing in and I breathing out
the serenity, the wholeness
the finality of feeling something
anything other than myself
be me and I’ll be you
even if it is pretend
I’m just sick of make-believeing you into my life.

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[07 May 2006|11:46pm]
[ mood | blah ]

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Everyone loves a MONTAGE!!! [02 May 2006|10:00pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Check this one out on my myspace:

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[16 Apr 2006|01:26pm]
[ mood | content ]

You Are Death

You symbolize the end, which can be frightening.
But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul.
You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life.
Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be.

Your fortune:

Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself.
Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of.
But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them.
Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

Thats pretty creepy. My life totally encomasas that right now...heh it's kinda funny cuz it fits an easter theme too. From death is rebirth/resurection.

HAPPY RESURECTION SUNDAY!!! may your lives be filled with rebirth as well.
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[12 Apr 2006|10:52pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

This makes me happy!

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[10 Apr 2006|01:49pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Pictures from The Mikado and the Cast Party are up on my webshots!

Check em out!!!

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ADAM PASCAL PICTURES!!! [06 Apr 2006|11:54pm]
[ mood | excited ]

If you're familiar with the musical RENT at all, Adam Pascal is the original Rodger. He also played the same character in the film that just came out last December! Anywho i've been a HUGE fan for a LONG time and he finally came to play at MY college!!! How crazy is that!!! I had an amazing time and he waved to me from a MINI VAN!!! HAHAH! WEEE! I RULE!!!!

To see the dreaminess that is Adam Pascal HERE!!!!

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[04 Apr 2006|11:59pm]
[ mood | blah ]

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WARNING!!: The following may make you pee!!! [04 Apr 2006|05:28pm]
[ mood | blah ]

So heres me in the dressing room before I went on as Katasha in The Mikado!!!

We have 3 more shows this coming weekend. So if you want to see more of me you can always come!!!
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[01 Apr 2006|06:50pm]
[ mood | curious ]

My latest song/poem

I can see life passing me by

It wizzes and whistles like a subway train

I listen to it's mezmorizing song

telling me go, go, go get out of the rain

My feet are glued to the ground

My head is in the sky

I try to find my peace of mind but I don't know where or why

My life is a journey and my destination

So why am I so discontent with this antisipation

I'm sick of rhyming

I want to be unique

I want to feel i've acomplished something, to make my life complete

No more childrens games

No more lonely nights

It's time to bring things into focus and realize my rights.

My feet are glued to the ground

My head is in the sky

I try to find my peace of mind but I don't know where or why

My life is a journey and my destination

So why am I so discontent with this antisipation

Oh nothin is so sweet as the feeling i'm alive

To open up my inner heart and put apologies aside.

October may be cold but my insperation lights my fire

So take my hand and understand that my life is my desire.

I know that old train arrives every day on time

With it's song for the masses and it's sleek crome design.

I wonder every time it passes, how it seems content

to spend it's life stuck to the tracks, welded to the dark cold cemment.

My feet are glued to the ground

My head is in the sky

I try to find my peace of mind but I don't know where or why

My life is a journey and my destination

So why am I so discontent with this antisipation

with my antisipation

with this whirl wind durration

In my manditory station...

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[01 Apr 2006|02:24am]
[ mood | crazy ]

It was SOOOOO beautiful out today. So when I went home to do laundry I went into our back woods and played.

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[29 Mar 2006|05:11pm]
[ mood | restless ]

I'm feeling much better. The bug killed my weekend though. Boo.

It's official, my birthday is a week away! I totally forgot about it until Monday. Turning 23 hasn't been on my priority list.

This Friday is opening night of The Mikado. My last college production and my first real lead here @ Cortland. Keep your fingers crossed I don't mess up.

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[24 Mar 2006|08:40am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

A week before the show is suppose to open and i'm getting ILL! AHHHHH!!!!

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[21 Mar 2006|11:40pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

This is my new favorite video:

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[21 Mar 2006|11:06pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

I know i'm getting all religious on you but I found great strength and peace in these verses. Psalm 21-22:

May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.

3 May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings. [b]

4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.

5 May we shout for joy over your victory
and lift up our banners in the name of our God.
May the LORD grant all your requests.

6 Now this I know:
The LORD gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.

7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

8 They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.

9 LORD, give victory to the king!
Answer us when we call!

The king rejoices in your strength, LORD.
How great is his joy in the victories you give!

2 You have granted him his heart's desire
and have not withheld the request of his lips. [b]

3 You came to greet him with rich blessings
and placed a crown of pure gold on his head.

4 He asked you for life, and you gave it to him—
length of days, for ever and ever.

5 Through the victories you gave, his glory is great;
you have bestowed on him splendor and majesty.

6 Surely you have granted him unending blessings
and made him glad with the joy of your presence.

7 For the king trusts in the LORD;
through the unfailing love of the Most High
he will not be shaken.

8 Your hand will lay hold on all your enemies;
your right hand will seize your foes.

9 When you appear for battle,
you will burn them up as in a blazing furnace.
The LORD will swallow them up in his wrath,
and his fire will consume them.

10 You will destroy their descendants from the earth,
their posterity from the human race.

11 Though they plot evil against you
and devise wicked schemes, they cannot succeed.

12 You will make them turn their backs
when you aim at them with drawn bow.

13 Be exalted in your strength, LORD;
we will sing and praise your might.

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[18 Mar 2006|06:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Man I miss my long hair sooooooooo much right now. *le sigh*

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Professional Student. [16 Mar 2006|08:50am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I can't believe things have come so full circle...

I started out at OCC, thinking I was going to dread it. Now i'm seriously considering going back right away to get an assosiates in photography and take a few other courses in business and graphic design. Personally I think it's the smart thing to do. I originally thought I was going to get my masters in photography, but who really NEEDS a masters in photography? It's all about your portfolio. OCC has a great photography program! Besides I can still stay on my parents insurance until i'm 25 if i'm in school. Also it's way less than a 4 year or a grad program. and lastly I wouldn't need all the SUNY requirement crap because i'd have a degree and all I would have to focus on would be my major classes. So If I took about 12 credits per semmester then I could also have a job and support myself. The rumor i've heard is that after you get a degree your finacial aide resets so hopefully that wouldn't be a problem. So yeah it really seems like the smart thing to do donchya think?

All I keep thinking about is the Tommy Boy quote lol "Lots of people go to school for 7 years!" "Yeah they're called DOCTORS!!!"

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